New, slightly sacrilegious Tshirt design of Gaius Baltar, enjoy.
It is available here.
New, slightly sacrilegious Tshirt design of Gaius Baltar, enjoy.
It is available here.
I created a Linkedin profile, and the first person I tried to add was an old college professor of mine. Instead of just asking me why I chose the name ‘Murderwear’ she wrote this:
I appreciate you wanting me in your network, but frankly, I am having a hard time with supporting “murderwear.” I can’t imagine why such a name or concept is cool or interesting. What is cool about murder = killing? I can’t abide by this. There’s too much killing and death in the world. Making that “cool” or using that as a marketing or branding approach I find repulsive. Best
I should have known people would take the name at face value. It still hurts that she jumped to conclusions. But then it occurred to me that I haven’t really explained it…I have refused to explain myself because I didn’t think it necessary.
I replied with the truth:
Well words are words and I choose to twist them and make them work for me. I choose the name not only because it sticks, but also because I’d like to “kill” the ideas we have about our clothing, beauty and fashion. Fashion kills people- quite literally. So in my own little way, I’m fighting back. I had a lot of trouble with depression, bulimia and hatred of my body- that’s why I won’t make anything in a “small”.
Its not something I’ve chosen to share, I thought it would make me look weak. But during college I was a different person. I hated everyone- myself included. Im fine now, but it took a lot to get to where I am.
I feel liberated now.
What You’ll need: lace and lace scraps of whatever color you like (as you can see, I love black/red) beads or a beaded necklace, ribbon (the ribbon I use has boning along the edges so it can be crimped) cotton craps for the base, and whatever other cool things you want to add. I used a black rose, some metal studs, and white ribbon for ties.
Cut the cotton down to the length of your wrist and double the width you want the bracelet to be. You may not want the cotton to be as wide as your lace because you’ll want to have the lace hang below it. The black lace I’m using is about 4inches wide, and I wanted the cotton base to be about 2.5 inches wide (so it would be 5 in wide total). You are going to fold this in half lengthwise so don’t forget to double the with. Next, cut down your lace and scraps to be just a little longer lengthwise than the cotton. Next, crimp (or fold) your ribbon to the desired pattern, then cut that down to size.
Glue down your first piece onto the cotton (which you should have folded in half). Only use one row of glue because everything your adding on top of this will secure it. If you add too much glue then it will turn out stiff. Do not worry about glue showing through- this will end up getting covered. Any parts that are overhanging the left and right edges will be trimmed later.
I folded the ribbon just below in half to create a layered effect- you can lay it down flat as well, either way looks great. Position it where and how you’d like! Any glue showing through can be covered later.
Continue adding pieces, now being careful with your glue. I added in lace with beaded black roses and a row of burgundy beads. with beads- make sure you cut the exact size you need. You can put a bit of hot blue on the ends to keep them from falling off the string.
Lay down some scraps as a base for the rose to sit in. I do this because with plastic roses, it can be tough to hide the glue. If you lay down some crimped lace first, you can use more glue to secure the rose- and it can’t be seen.
Flip your bracelet over and glue down any overage to the back of the bracelet. We’re almost done, all we need is to put in ties to secure it, and close it up!
glue down two rows of ribbon/lace/string to close the bracelet. you want two rows because with one- the bracelet will look warped when you wear it. I used white ribbon because I like the look when paired with the silver on the bracelet. Use just a row of glue to lay down the ties- then go over that area again when you glue the bracelet shut. You only need to glue the perimeter- if you lay a lot of glue down across the whole area you will have a very stiff bracelet!
Others I’ve made
I first met Amber through a mutual friend. We were going to an 80s night dance, and she was done up like she fell through a rainbow. Awesome bright multicolored hair, crazy bright eyeshadow…like rainbow bright, only more foul-mouthed.
She was a total geek, and it was amazing. She was hyper excited about Sailor Moon, and we connected through that. I always love meeting people like that- not afraid to be themselves and live by their own rules.
What is your favorite Video game?
When asked about my favorite anything I immediately have a million possible answers flying through my head. I always fall in love with things so easily. It’s my curse. Out of all the games I’ve played I would have to narrow that down to either Fatal Frame 2 or the first Bioshock. I’ve played through both so many times that I could probably complete them in full with my eyes closed. Although the fact that you can unlock a pumpkin to put on your sister’s head in Fatal Frame kinda makes it push it’s way into the number one spot. I have fond memories of zooming in on her pumpkin head and poking her with my flashlight…. Ok that sounds wrong. Bioshock it is.
How long have you been playing video games? Tell me about your first gaming experience.
To be completely honest I don’t even remember not playing video games. It’s just always been something that I’ve done. My family has always had some sort of console whether it be Atari, Nintendo, or Playstation. I used to watch my brothers play Pong and cheer one or the other on like it was some sort of hardcore competitive sport. One of those moments that I realized I loved games so much was when I played Paperboy for the first time. I was so good at it! Nobody wanted to play with me because I would always kick their asses. I find this particularly funny since now when I try to play it I can’t even make it past the first board. The terror that I feel when the lawnmower almost runs my ass down is still there. Good to see some things don’t change I guess.
How are you treated online?
For me the genera reception isn’t so bad. I get stupid people occasionally but then there’s the ones that aren’t so bad. I mean, I did meet my boyfriend of almost 4 years playing over Xbox Live. Mostly though, there are 3 standard responses that I get from fellow gamers:
1. Shut the fuck up you little faggot! Your balls haven’t even dropped
2. … Wait…. are you a girl? *friend request sent*
3. Cool. You play video games. Me too.
One and two are the most prevalent of responses unfortunately. Once they find out I’m a female they either get try to hit on me or they insist I’m 400 lbs overweight and look like an ogre. For the most part I’ve learned to ignore stupidity. You don’t look the way I do and not pick up a trick or two in the art of not giving a fuck. I get some flack sometimes but when it comes down to it my gamerscore is bigger than yours, buddy. Go buy a sports car.
Anything to say about how society sees girl gamers?
Maybe it’s just because I’m the type of person who believes people are people but I am always shocked to see that sexism is still a huge issue. Recently media and video game personality Patrick Scott Patterson started featuring articles on his website about women in the gaming industry in an attempt to prove that the social stigma of the female gamer is absurd and outdated. Each article is about different women who are passionate about games and make them their life’s work in one way or another. Every one of them influential in their own way. There was a lot of positive feedback from both male and female readers but the negative was just astounding. I mean, you’ll obviously get random trolls with the “Get that bitch back in the kitchen” bullshit but some of the responses were just mind blowingly sexist. It takes a lot to anger me but some of these people just infuriated me. I really respect the dude for putting it out there they way he does and the expert way of handling the ignorance that he is bombarded with for it.
What are some of your other interests?
I have so many loves! I’m a big pop culture nut. I have always been a huge fan of books. The first actual book I ever read was The Hobbit. I quickly became obsessed with Tolkien. That lead to an obsession with fantasy and C.S. Lewis. My father got me into Spiderman and X-Men comics when I was very young and that just opened a flood gate.These days I tend to lean more toward DC though. I eventually went through a phase of my childhood where my mother had to fight me to take off my Batman costume. My book shelf is currently comprised half of manga and half of novels. God. I could talk all day just about books! Haha! I love all things Japanese. I want to go to Japan just to absorb the culture and shop. I have a handful of tv shows that I watch on a very regular basis. I spend countless hours watching Doctor Who. I am not ashamed to say that I am a little obsessed. I’m really into movies and spend a lot of time watching cheesy horror and B-Movies. I love music of all kinds. I don’t think there is a genre that I can say I don’t like a single artist in. I’m very passionate about animals. I love make up and hair color. I love color in general. I have actually been referred to on more than one occasion as a living rainbow. I can dig that.
What do you do for fun?
I read a lot. I recently bought a tablet just so that I can have more access to reading materials. I play a lot of games. I don’t go a day without playing a video game. I still play the Pokemon trading card game so I will occasionally build a new deck just do do it. I like drawing and painting but I haven’t done that in quite some time. May have to get back into that soon. I spend a lot of time with my cat Morgan Freeman. A whole lot of time. People can laugh all they want, but Morgan is my best friend.
Run me through a day in your life.
Well, every day I am awakened by Morgan. He will cuddle up to me and poke me in the face with his paws until I get up. From there I either go sit in the front room and read while he hangs out in the window or I will go in the living room and either play a game or watch tv. The cat goes where I go and actually does watch tv and knows how to open my Xbox tray. I have yet to train him to turn it off or on. Later days though. I usually just kill time until my guy gets home and hang out with him for a bit. When it’s time for bed I have a box that my cat likes to be carried around in. He gets in the box and then sits in it on the bed and plays with us until he’s too tired. We give him a cat treat and then all cozy up and sleep. A rather uneventful existence most of the time, but I enjoy it.
Tell me about your hopes/dreams/aspirations.
I live in the now. My biggest aspiration has never changed since I was a teenager. Make sure to be the type of person that leaves an impression. Not just based on my appearance, but the way I treat people. I’ve been treated badly by people before and I promised never to let myself be that person to someone else. If I find out that I’ve made a positive impact on someone’s life, that is the best thing in the world to me.
You wanna tell me about that awesome makeup, and how you found it?
Haha. Oh my makeup. You have no idea how much I love this stuff. I think I found it by late night browsing some memebase site. There was a picture captioned “Pokemon themed eyeshadow” and it was just like “Ok. You have my attention.” I get them from www.shirocosmetics.com It’s a really awesome company run by a cool little lady that loves color and geekery. Everything is vegan and cruelty free and based on some form of nerdiness. There are eyeshadow lines based on Pokemon, Death Note, The Hobbit, The Hunger Games, and always a color of the month. The October one was called Nic Cage Raking Leaves on a Brisk October Afternoon. Amazing. Plus with every purchase she throws in little candies and wraps things up nicely. Super cute!!!
So, Ive been playing video games longer than Ive known how to write. I don’t really think of myself as a girl gamer (well, I did back in the 90s because it was less common). I am a gamer- period.
I’m also a prestige 7 on Black Ops 2. Which is funny, because until maybe February, the only shooter I could play was Halo (badly but I loved it), and I didn’t play that nearly as much as Warcraft or Super Street Fighter 4. I got black Ops 2 a week or so after launch and was absolutely horrible at it. Now its just something I do…and the people you meet…are special.
The lobby list will look like:
[kammi]me, [jEEf]my bf, [GIRL]omgGamergurl6969, [PERV]oldmanlikestochat
This is either console, but much much worse on ps3 because its so much easier to hear cross talk, plus there are more adults/less children, so you run into it more. I have both consoles and games for each.
These chicks get on, fail it up, and giggle and act all cute- and it kills the game for me. After playing with a person like that so often, you start thinking girls are a- horrible at this game. or b-attention seeking noobs
Now guys are used to these nubs that get on the game just to fail and chat- and think all girls are like that. So when I go into a lobby, and my mic is on, I’m get berated from guys yelling sarcastically “omg I’m a girl and I play games”
yeah I am a girl, and I also destroyed you last match….
I wanted to post a mean meme or something, but thats not helping anything, what Ill do instead is ask you this: If you encounter this type of ‘gamer’ just mute her. se’ll drop out if nobody is paying attention, or telling her ‘its okay you’re bad’
So girls, if your horrible at first person shooters, PLEASE stop using “I’m a girl” as an excuse/cop out for your failures. Own your failures (and stop blaming them on your gender), and if you keep gaming, eventually you’ll get better. I did!
So, I totally forgot to even mention the name of my business, lol. Its called murderwear. Because you should look awesome when your mind breaks. I kid, its mainly stuff I think that I would have liked to be able to purchase as a kid, in highschool when I was a supergoth. Tshirts then (and still now) tend to be photos- where I like graphic illustrated images. Its going to be a tough year
I believe in me…I think. Its been a tough first few months. Starting a business is HARD. So, after getting my tax returns I went out and bought a two color one station screen print setup, as well as a HIX press so that I could more easily do light shirts (with transfer papers)
Im finally starting to see payoff though- etsy and ebay sales are coming in, but no sales from my actual website yet /shrug. Each day I go into my shop setup and just wonder….Can I do this?
I think the most important thing is to believe in myself and never give up
Also here is an image of what was on the press, isnt he cute?
Below is my business twitter, etsy, ebay. Thanks for reading ^^